Through My Own Eyes

At this moment, I am having a hard time seeing the screen to type. Sadly, that is not an unusual occurrence for me these days; but in this case, it is because of the tears blurring my vision. Tears because I am finally writing this post.

I know I just kind of disappeared several months ago. I apologise to my readers for not giving notice; I owed you all an explanation and I want to do that now.

I have a condition called Macular Degeneration. It is not uncommon but it can be devastating nonetheless. It causes a blurring and darkening in the centre of my vision that affects my ability to see things clearly. It also affects my depth perception. It has no cure; I will never regain full vision. All I can do is try to slow down its advance. My right eye is much worse than my left, but my vision in both eyes is slowly deteriorating. I can still see to work, but anything that depends on depth perception is increasingly difficult. This, sadly, includes photography in Second Life.

For over five years, blogging was my passion. Staging a scene, styling my avatar, selecting a pose, finding just the right goddamn angle and Windlight setting all were challenges that I embraced. And I was pretty OK at it. I met many wonderful and talented people, forged friendships and family through it and just had a good time. But as my condition worsened, I found it harder and harder to find the joy. It became a chore and a source of stress and distress. In January I made the decision to resign from blogging for groups and creators as I didn’t feel I could adequately give them the coverage they deserved. My plan was to just blog whenever I felt inspired. But I found that removing the deadlines didn’t eradicate the stress; I simply wasn’t good enough anymore to meet my own standards. So…I just walked away.

During the course of blogging, I developed several Windlight settings. I mainly used these for portrait photography, but a few of them are kind of pretty but some of them are rather stark and bright. I hadn’t really realised, but I think I was trying to bring a bit more lightness into my world. At any rate, I have uploaded these to MediaFire and you are welcome to download them and use them, if you would like. You can find them here: Peep’s Windlight Settings . If you need help installing them, there is a good post on the Second Life Forum that explains how to do it.

I still log into Second Life on occasion, but I feel lost without having a photo to shoot, a blog post to prepare, a room to style. I am trying to find my way again in Second Life – I still love the creativity of this virtual world and I haven’t been able to give up on it. So, if you see a half-blind avatar wandering around but still looking somewhat stylish, stop and say hello. I still want to see you through my own eyes.

Pretty stuff I’m showing off:
Dress: Salt & Pepper S&P Gabriella Lara flower by xxSaltandPepperxx
Necklace: *PROMAGIC* Laxmi-Necklace-RoseGold by Promagic
Hair: Lamb. Dream by Lamb Bellic
Mesh head: .LeLutka.Head.May 3.0 by JadenArt
Mesh body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1 by Onyx LeShelle
Mesh head applier: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* for LeLutka Heads *Shannyn* EASTERN by Steffi Villota (available at Uber through August 22)
Mesh body applier: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* for Maitreya Mesh Body “Freckles” EASTERN by Steffi Villota
Eyeshadow: alaskametro<3 “Duochrome” eyeshadow – Lelutka by Alaska Metropolitan (available at The Mesh Body Addicts Fair August 2018)
Lipstick: alaskametro<3 “Whimsy” makeup palette – Lelutka HUD by Alaska Metropolitan (available at The Mesh Body Addicts Fair August 2018)
Pose: IMAGE ESSENTIALS IE – Soft Caress 3 mirror by kay Weston
Windlight setting: Boho Teal2 (PeepS)

Respite With Dragonflies

“Nope” pretty much sums up how I felt about doing anything today. With temperatures hovering around 45C (113F) it was a good day to sit very still with a fan blowing full-force on me. It was even too hot to log into Second Life for most of the day.

Eventually, the mercury dipped to a brisk 40C and I launched my viewer to try to do a bit of work. Although trying out pretty new things isn’t really a hardship, it does take a bit of effort to put the look together.

I am showcasing both fashion, beauty and home & garden in this post. With both The Liaison Collaborative and The Seasons Story opening soon, it is a good opportunity to give you a sneak preview of some of the goodies to come.

I am wearing the [ session ] Phoebe Tone02 Catwa Applier for this photo. I hadn’t worn a Catwa head for a while, but this skin was just too pretty to pass up. My eye shadow and lipstick are choices that come with the applier and I chose to add both freckles and moles – also options with this applier. The only variance from the original are my eyebrows, as this set doesn’t come with red brows (light and dark only). However, it does have a no-brow option, so I was able to stay true to my ginger roots (pun intended). The shading is really lovely on this skin and I love the shape of the lips.

Also from TLC are these great jeans from Entice. They are designed to work with Mid feet; a rarity in most designs. If you tend to wear this foot position, you really should grab these jeans. They come in the traditional denim shades, plus some brighter colours to work with almost any top in your wardrobe. I did try them with high feet and they still work well, but they aren’t designed to compliment flat feet.

On to the decor: Kuro will be releasing this lovely basket chair at the upcoming round of The Seasons Story. There are both PG and Adult versions, and you can complete the set with a basket lamp and bed.

Since these events aren’t yet open, you should visit the [ keke ] mainstore or Marketplace in the meantime. The beautiful dragonflies come in a fatpack of 5 colours for one low price.

They will turn the most pedestrian garden into a place of whimsical respite; just what is needed on an ultra-hot day.

Pretty stuff I’m showing off:
Top: .epoch. hash tied top. maitreya.nope. by Lylah Lyric
*Jeans: Entice – Baby I’m Yours Jeans by EnticeStore (available at The Liaison Collaborative January 7-30)
*Choker: .::Nanika::. Within my heart choker by sDEVAs (available at The Liaison Collaborative January 7-30)

*Mesh head: CATWA HEAD Lona v2.12 by Catwa Clip
Mesh body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1 by Onyx Leshelle
*Mesh head applier: [ session ] Phoebe Tone02 (Catwa applier) by Anj4 (available at The Liaison Collaborative January 7-30)
Mesh body applier: [ session ] Maitreya Body Applier Tone02 v2.3
Eyebrows:
.:JUMO:. Britani Eyebrows – CATWA Heads by JumoFashion
Hair: [BAD HAIR DAY] Saha Hair by MatthewMil (available at FaMESHed January 2018)
*Chair & pose: Kuro – Basket chair Adult by Luana Dawg (coming to The Seasons Story January 10)
*Dragonflies: [ keke ] even dragonflies dream . warm by Kean Kelly
Grass: Garden by anc dotty wild grass {colorful} 1prim ring by aki69
Flowers: KIDD GRASS*Bush*Rudbeckia Small by doP Kidd
Wall: –ANHELO-M45WA-181GA :: my little garden (wall) by fk0724

Sweet Dreams When You Get There

It’s New Year’s Eve in my part of the world already. Whether you stay in and celebrate quietly or go out and bring in 2018 with a wild party, sweet dreams when you get there.

Tomorrow’s a big, new day.

Pretty stuff I’m showing off:
*Dress: Salt & Pepper S&P Aya Lara by xxSaltandPepperxx (available at Japonica through January 14)
Necklaces: *AvaWay* ROXY_ Necklace by Avaway
Hair: {Limerence} Corinne hair by Kirusik (available at Kinky Event through January 19)
Mesh head: .LeLutka.Head.May 3.0 by JadenArt
Mesh body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1 by Onyx LeShelle
Mesh head applier: Revoul Lefort.Saje Lelutka Applier in Tone 3 by HighCache (available at Shiny Shabby through January 15
Mesh body applier: Lefort by Revoul :: 2017 Body Appliers in Tone 03
Eyes applier: Avi-Glam AG. Vivid Eyes – Lelutka Applier – Daylight by Kendra Parfort

Sofa: Culprit Bohemia Daybed by eku Zhong
Pose: Imitation – Amber 5 M by Euphorisme