I’m Not Afraid To Look Down, But I Won’t Let Go

1 On a Swing

Balancing my life is not akin to walking a tightrope; instead, it is more like teetering on a swing, not quite ready to let go, but getting to the point where I can at least look down. Slippery slopes and all that (yes, I know I’m mixing my metaphors like a Kansas farmhouse in a tornado!)

It is a challenge to keep my equilibrium and composure some days. Hell, most days. Traffic woes, work stresses, wild and sometimes frightening dreams, broken sleep and aches and pains all push me to my limits. But then a cuddle from my (usually) stand-offish cat, a chat with my sweetheart and a photo that I am happy with are the counterbalance to the distress I allow to cloud my day.

I am learning, slowly, not to fear looking down, but I still won’t let go.

Top: Addams // Sophia Tank Top // Maitreya by AmaliaRainwood (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Jeans: Vinyl – Oakley Jeans – Light Blue- Lara by Sukoshitosuto (available at Uber July/August 2015)
*Earrings: Salt & Pepper S&P hippie earrings gold (gacha prize at The Gacha Garden August 2015)
Feet wrappings: fri.day fri. – Aisling.Wraps (Blush) – Maitreya High by Darling Monday (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Hair: *ARGRACE* NAO – Ginger by rika Oyen (New Release)
Tattoo: [White~Widow] Midnight in Paris – MeshBody Appliers by Julie Hastings (New Release)
Skin: -Glam Affair – Summerv3 – America 02 E by aida Ewing
Body, hands and feet: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V1.0 by Onyx LeShelle
Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes – Maldives by Ikon Innovia
Lashes: Mon Cheri *MC* “Falsies” Eyelash by Freya Oliveri

Chair: {anc} le cirque de reverie .8/ blanc / pink / hangingchair 2Li by aki69 (gacha prize)
Tree: HPMD* Garden Tree05 – white 2A + 2B by Sasaya Kayo (recoloured)
Daisies: The Little Branch Marketplace StoreLB_Daisy{Rounded-Field} by Cari McKeenan
Grass: [we’re CLOSED] grass field lush by Wendy Xeno

Pose by the chair

Photo taken using the LumiPro HUD by Stefan Buscaylet

Shadows & Daydreams

1 Becca's Daydream

Much to talk about! I know I have been relatively quiet on the blog front recently. It’s not that I haven’t had lots of pretties to photograph, but rather that I lost my shadows a while back. Not literally; I just couldn’t photograph them any longer. Sadly, every time I had shadows enabled and clicked a pic, my viewer crashed 😦 Light and shadows have always been the most exciting part of photography for me, so when I lost the ability to use it in Second Life, my motivation to take pictures began to wane. I would still create a set, style an outfit and shoot multiple photos in varying Windlight settings, but they just seemed flat to me. I am not accomplished enough in Photoshop to create my own shadows realistically, so I just let my work on my blog dwindle to a trickle, while lamenting and daydreaming about my lost light and shade.

Then, yesterday, I decided to finally install the latest beta Firestorm update. I had held back because of the known detachment issues, but since they hadn’t yet released the alpha update in several weeks, I went ahead and installed the current version. And something happened that I didn’t realise would make such a huge difference to me in just a while…

Firestorm changed the configuration of my graphics card as relates to the viewer. I didn’t think anything about it at the time, but when I finally began to take photographs using the new interface (which I LOVE, by the way!!) I noticed that the refresh rate was amazingly faster than it was before. Holding my breath, I went into Preferences and enabled Sun, Moon & Projectors, clicked my virtual shutter-release button and…

Nothing happened. Well, at least not what I was dreading – the crash, the swear words, the frustration, the reboot! The image simply refreshed within a couple of seconds! Considering it previously took up to 20 seconds to refresh an image using the old version sans shadows, I was dancing and laughing like a two-year old hyped up on Frogs in a Pond!

Happy, happy girl 🙂

On top of all of that, I got into Collabor88 and just died deliriously over the goodies from [ keke ] and Vagabond & Kalopsia! You can tell – almost every prop in this photo is from one of those creators. I needed something to showcase this lovely and feminine corset and skirt set from Salt & Pepper for We < 3 Role-Play this month, and they fit the bill magically.

It was a good day. In fact, I think I know exactly how Stella felt when she finally got her groove back. While the shadows aren’t overly evident in this photo, you should see them in some of the other forty-odd raw shots I have!

To celebrate, I’ll just be happily dwelling amongst the shadows and daydreams with a faraway smile on my face.

Pretty stuff I’m showing off:

*Top: Salt & Pepper S&P Corsage Becca by xxSaltandPepperxx
(available at We < 3 Role-Play August 2015)
*Skirt: Salt & Pepper S&P Skirt Becca S sand by xxSaltandPepperxx (available at We < 3 Role-Play August 2015)
Feet wrappings: fri.day fri. – Aisling.Wraps (Blush) – Maitreya High by Darling Monday (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Hair: *ARGRACE* NAO – Ginger by rika Oyen (New Release)
Tattoo: [White~Widow] Midnight in Paris – MeshBody Appliers by Julie Hastings (New Release)
Skin: -Glam Affair – Summerv3 – America 02 E by aida Ewing
Body, hands and feet: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V1.0 by Onyx LeShelle
Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes – Maldives by Ikon Innovia
Lashes: Mon Cheri *MC* “Falsies” Eyelash by Freya Oliveri

Floor: Kalopsia – Broken Floor – Dream by Isasbeau Baragula (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Table: Vagabond – Pearl’s Birdie Cage by Shawneese Offcourse (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Birdcage: Vagabond – Pearl’s Birdie Cage by Shawneese Offcourse (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Curtains: Kalopsia– Lace Curtains by Isabeau Baragula (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Leaves: Kalopsia – Flying leaves – Dream 1 by Isabeau Baragula (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Book: floorplan. daydream book by Tegan Serin (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
floor lights: [ keke ] glitter floor by Kean Kelly (available at Collabor88 August 2015)
Stars: [ keke ] star glitter by Kean Kelly (available at Collabor88 August 2015)

Pose: Di’s Opera – Glam Series 4 – 2 by Di Hoorenbeek

Photo taken using the LumiPro HUD by Stefan Buscaylet

Mirror, Mirror

1 Mirror, Mirror

Usually I hate mirrors because I’m not happy with the face looking back at me…until I’ve at least applied my mascara. But in this case, it was trying to get the mirror images lined up in this photo. I finally did it…after about an hour. They’re probably not perfect, but I did heave a sigh of accomplishment when I finished.

Apple May Designs has released this sexy top and shoes recently. You can find both in the main store, and one colour of the shoes is the group gift. Pop over and join the group to grab them. I’m sure you can see yourself in them – just look in the mirror.

*Top: Apple May Designs After Hours – Rose *PinStripe* by Apple May
*Shoes: Apple May Designs Zairya Heels *Slink High* – Black by Apple May
Hair: Blueberry – Jie – Hair Design by Blueberryxx
Tattoo: [White~Widow] Tesis – white – Maitreya Mesh Body by Julie Hastings (available at Shiny Shabby July-August 2015)
Necklace: (Yummy) Repurposed Charms Necklace – Eclectic – N21 Exclusive by Polyester Partridge (available at N21 July 2015)
Skin: -Glam Affair – Summerv3 – America 02 E by aida Ewing
Body, hands and feet: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V1.0 by Onyx LeShelle
Eyes: IKON Promise Eyes – Maldives by Ikon Innovia
Lashes: Mon Cheri *MC* “Falsies” Eyelash by Freya Oliveri

Bathtub: NOMAD // Industrial Bathtub .001 by Piraiya Novikov
Rug: Apple Fall AF Fiber Rug by Warehousefifteendesigns
Table: *windsong. ; night table w. books { woods } by Snowy Melody
Birdcage: *windsong. ; caged candles by Snowy Me
Bath stool & accessories: NOMAD // Bath Stool by Piraiyah Novikov
Mirrors: Wayward Muse [WM] Frosted Mirrors by Nidalia (former hunt gift)

Pose: aDORKable Poses Marketplace Store: Legs 4m by Adorkable Peapod

Photos taken using the LumiPro HUD by Stefan Buscaylet