Moods

Taking A (Virtual) Mental Health Break

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I took a little break from blogging. It wasn’t so much that I was burnt out from my 30-day challenge, but more that I was burnt out from SL in general. I have never made it a secret that I am fully immersed in our little world and the people I am closest to have links to Second Life. I am very much a “Virtual Girl”.

I think one of the best parts (or maybe the worst) is that when the drama or circumstances get to be too much, you can just check out. I guess not logging in to SL is the real world equivalent of taking a “Mental Health Day” from work. You know the one…when you aren’t really ill but you just need a day or two to recover your mojo. It works in SL, too. I had tried taking photos, but I just wasn’t “seeing” them. The angle, the lighting, the location just weren’t right, no matter how many different versions I tried. So, I did the only thing I could think to do; I took a Virtual Mental Health Break.

I’ve spent my time away working on other things – skills that I can use in either world, although it remains to be seen just how successful I will be. But I’ll keep learning, trying, reflecting on what I need to do. And hopefully, sharing what I have discovered.

The Haunted Meme – Standing On The Edge Of Tomorrow

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A fear of heights is a classic phobia. I’m not afraid of heights, so much as I am of falling. I remember distinctly when this fear manifested itself. I was eight years old, on a trip to Mammoth Cave in Kentucky with my sisters and my oldest sister’s family. After traversing most of the cave, there was a stairway you have to climb built over the “Bottomless Pit” to reach the end of the tour. This stairway was made of metal grating and when looking down, you were staring into the abyss. I recall the terror that seized me about halfway up; my brother-in-law had to take my hand and lead me the rest of the way. I had nightmares for years about this experience. And it is a fear that plagues me to this day.

But that still isn’t my greatest fear. It is looking back on my life and worrying that the best has passed me by. That the worst days of my life may turn out to be the best. That the foolish decisions I made when much younger have led me to a place where the edge of tomorrow is a steep, craggy cliff that I am afraid to descend. And I am left with nothing but a yesterday that is far from ideal, but better than what is ahead.

When I saw Berry’s meme this week, I was afraid (haha) that this would end up seeming depressing. Her instructions were:

What are you afraid of? What are you haunted by? Share some of your fears and if you can, create an image depicting one of them. Don’t forget to leave your link in the comments!

To combat the somber tone of my post, I decided to deck myself out in the brightness of sunshine, with the softness of a daffodil’s petals and the delicacy of a butterfly. Thanks to the new round of Collabor88, that was a simpler task than convincing my avatar to stand on this precipice long enough for me to take photos. It was, I admit, a rather quick photoshoot 😉 I found this location in the Destination Guide, once again. It is a sim well-worth exploring called Skye Neist Point. I’ll be going back to wander around another time.

I took a few days off from blogging, and I apologise for not mentioning it in advance. But actually, it wasn’t planned; just a case of inertia. But I’m back now.

Never fear.

Credits:
Dress: Baiastice_Ayoun dress-yellow (Collabor88)
Shoes: ::HH:: Hucci Nasik Sandals – Summer Yellow (Collabor88)
Hair: “”D!va”” Hair “Ange” (Garnet) (Collabor88)
Hands & Feet by SLink
Skin: [:T:] Helena / powder (red) :: 09

Pose: SHAG – Lookin’ BackF

Fighting Against The Tide

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Sometimes when you try your hardest to protect someone you love, you end up feeling like you’re holding back the ocean, all by yourself. Just a single soul fighting against the tide.

I think this time I’m just going to let the waves wash over me.