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Stepping Back From The Cliff

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This last week has seen several of my friends do things in Second Life that I know they will end up regretting. Repeating mistakes, jumping into things without forethought, burning bridges with people they should be reaching out to. I have kept my mouth shut, but as I told my brother on Wednesday, if I ended up unable to DJ on Friday night it wouldn’t have been because I still didn’t have my voice back; it would be because I had bitten off my tongue!

It’s kind of like standing on a cliff, wondering who will jump and who will survive.

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I’m standing there now with some people who are very close to me, but I’m stepping back from the cliff. I will maintain my silence, turn around and face my own life. After all, to get to that cliff, I had to climb the mountain.

Special thanks to a few people who reminded me that I am there (perhaps without even realising it) – my lil Cao, my bubby, K and of course, as always, my Shining Star ♥

Pretty stuff I’m wearing:

Pants: !gO! Pocket Pants by Gocha Merlin
Top: Twisted and Spoiled – Mustard Tank Top by Phia Vaughn (I’ve had this for about three years; I don’t know if it is still available, but I’ve still provided the link to the store)
Boots: DECO – Test Boots – Dusty by GutterBlood Spoonhammer (again, very old. Check the store for availability. But they are resizable and work under mesh pants)
Backpack: DECO – MESH Survivalist Backpack by Barf Delicioso (available at The Men’s Department)
Hair: *ARGRACE* Baseball cap2/Grace – Red by rika Oyen
Necklace: ***Just You Jewels*** Bonnie & Clyde Women by Clyde Avon
Earrings: [MANDALA]Otsumami earring/silver by Kikunosuke Eel
Skin: [PXL] Creations [PXL] JADE SK WineLight Lips MEB C2 by Hart
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Hands: Slink Mesh Hands (av) Casual by Siddean Munro
Hand Appliers: [ PXL ] Creations [ PXL ] Slink Hands Appliers SK
Eyes: Mayfly – Liquid Light Mesh Eyes (Glacial River, w3) by Arkesh Baral

Poses by aDORKABLE Poses – Stroll Dork Pack by Adorkable Peapod (available on Marketplace only)

This Is A Love Story

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It’s the longing,
The loving,
The emotion that fills me
When I think of you.

It’s the loneliness,
The aching,
The memories that fill me
When I close my eyes and dream of you.

This is a love story.

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Pretty stuff I’m wearing:
Top: .: ryvolter :. Sequined Crop Tank – S – Nude by Sanya Bilavio (available at Collabor88)
Pants: .: ryvolter :. Silk Wide-Leg Pants – S – Nude by Sanya Bilavio
Wrap: .: ryvolter :. Mink Princess Stole – Deep Purple by Sanya Bilavio
Necklace: [MANDALA]KABUKI NECKLACE/ Shangri-La PINK by Kikunosuke Eel
Earrings: C (L)MANDALA]KABUKI earring/Shangri-La PINK by Kikunosuke Eel
Shoes: Ingenue :: Pickford Heels :: Ivory for Slink Medium Feet by Betty Doyle (available at Collabor88)
Hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Claudette Mesh Hair – Rouge by MissAllSunday Lemon (available at Collabor88)
Skin: [PXL] Creations [PXL] JADE SK WineLight Lips MEB C2 by Hart
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Hands: Slink Mesh Hands (av) Casual by Siddean Munro
Hand Appliers: [ PXL ] Creations [ PXL ] Slink Hands Appliers SK
Eyes: Mayfly – Liquid Light Mesh Eyes (Glacial River, w3) by Arkesh Baral
Feet: Slink Mesh Feet (Av Enhance) Medium by Siddean Munro

Pose by: ~*~ Inspired ~*~ Key To My Heart Bench Set by RH Engel

Taking A (Virtual) Mental Health Break

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I took a little break from blogging. It wasn’t so much that I was burnt out from my 30-day challenge, but more that I was burnt out from SL in general. I have never made it a secret that I am fully immersed in our little world and the people I am closest to have links to Second Life. I am very much a “Virtual Girl”.

I think one of the best parts (or maybe the worst) is that when the drama or circumstances get to be too much, you can just check out. I guess not logging in to SL is the real world equivalent of taking a “Mental Health Day” from work. You know the one…when you aren’t really ill but you just need a day or two to recover your mojo. It works in SL, too. I had tried taking photos, but I just wasn’t “seeing” them. The angle, the lighting, the location just weren’t right, no matter how many different versions I tried. So, I did the only thing I could think to do; I took a Virtual Mental Health Break.

I’ve spent my time away working on other things – skills that I can use in either world, although it remains to be seen just how successful I will be. But I’ll keep learning, trying, reflecting on what I need to do. And hopefully, sharing what I have discovered.