Through My Own Eyes

At this moment, I am having a hard time seeing the screen to type. Sadly, that is not an unusual occurrence for me these days; but in this case, it is because of the tears blurring my vision. Tears because I am finally writing this post.

I know I just kind of disappeared several months ago. I apologise to my readers for not giving notice; I owed you all an explanation and I want to do that now.

I have a condition called Macular Degeneration. It is not uncommon but it can be devastating nonetheless. It causes a blurring and darkening in the centre of my vision that affects my ability to see things clearly. It also affects my depth perception. It has no cure; I will never regain full vision. All I can do is try to slow down its advance. My right eye is much worse than my left, but my vision in both eyes is slowly deteriorating. I can still see to work, but anything that depends on depth perception is increasingly difficult. This, sadly, includes photography in Second Life.

For over five years, blogging was my passion. Staging a scene, styling my avatar, selecting a pose, finding just the right goddamn angle and Windlight setting all were challenges that I embraced. And I was pretty OK at it. I met many wonderful and talented people, forged friendships and family through it and just had a good time. But as my condition worsened, I found it harder and harder to find the joy. It became a chore and a source of stress and distress. In January I made the decision to resign from blogging for groups and creators as I didn’t feel I could adequately give them the coverage they deserved. My plan was to just blog whenever I felt inspired. But I found that removing the deadlines didn’t eradicate the stress; I simply wasn’t good enough anymore to meet my own standards. So…I just walked away.

During the course of blogging, I developed several Windlight settings. I mainly used these for portrait photography, but a few of them are kind of pretty but some of them are rather stark and bright. I hadn’t really realised, but I think I was trying to bring a bit more lightness into my world. At any rate, I have uploaded these to MediaFire and you are welcome to download them and use them, if you would like. You can find them here: Peep’s Windlight Settings . If you need help installing them, there is a good post on the Second Life Forum that explains how to do it.

I still log into Second Life on occasion, but I feel lost without having a photo to shoot, a blog post to prepare, a room to style. I am trying to find my way again in Second Life – I still love the creativity of this virtual world and I haven’t been able to give up on it. So, if you see a half-blind avatar wandering around but still looking somewhat stylish, stop and say hello. I still want to see you through my own eyes.

Pretty stuff I’m showing off:
Dress: Salt & Pepper S&P Gabriella Lara flower by xxSaltandPepperxx
Necklace: *PROMAGIC* Laxmi-Necklace-RoseGold by Promagic
Hair: Lamb. Dream by Lamb Bellic
Mesh head: .LeLutka.Head.May 3.0 by JadenArt
Mesh body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1 by Onyx LeShelle
Mesh head applier: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* for LeLutka Heads *Shannyn* EASTERN by Steffi Villota (available at Uber through August 22)
Mesh body applier: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* for Maitreya Mesh Body “Freckles” EASTERN by Steffi Villota
Eyeshadow: alaskametro<3 “Duochrome” eyeshadow – Lelutka by Alaska Metropolitan (available at The Mesh Body Addicts Fair August 2018)
Lipstick: alaskametro<3 “Whimsy” makeup palette – Lelutka HUD by Alaska Metropolitan (available at The Mesh Body Addicts Fair August 2018)
Pose: IMAGE ESSENTIALS IE – Soft Caress 3 mirror by kay Weston
Windlight setting: Boho Teal2 (PeepS)

Damn, These Boots!


This is a peek at the rare Charity boots from for the October round of The Epiphany. Baby soft, yet rugged enough in case you do choose to go walkabout in them. The adorable socks are the Exclusive at The Epiphany, so make sure you redeem those points for these Maitreya Lara socks. If you’re not a Maitreya wearer, don’t worry; the boots are unrigged, so while they were fitted for Lara, you can edit them to fit another body.

Some boots were made for walking; these babies were made for admiring. Damn, in fact, these boots were made for fondling!

Pretty stuff I’m showing off:
Jacket: Foxes – Foxy Jacket & Bra – Luxebox October by nina Helix (LuxeBox October exclusive)
Skirt: SPIRIT – Sera skirt [Maitreya Lara] by Spirit Osmus (available at Collabor88 October 2016)
*Socks: – Charity.Socks by Darling Monday (Exclusive prize at The Epiphany beginning October 15)
*Boots: Charity.Boots (Coal) (Rare gacha prize at The Epiphany beginning October 15)
Hair: Lamb. Vertigo by Lamb Bellic (LuxeBox October exclusive)
Head: CATWA HEAD Tumble V4.9 by Catwa Clip
*Skin & Catwa Head Applier: Elysium – Candice skin (red brow) – mocha freck by Aleida Rhode
Body, feet and hands: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara by Onyx LeShelle
Eyes: LOTUS. Devotion Eyes – 2 by Lilanachristina (gacha prize)
Eyeshadow: Deesses Boutique : Catwa – Queen eyeshadow set (10 models) by NatalieWells

Pose from sofa (Soy. by Soyoy)
Location: Elysion (members only)

Lips Like Marilyn

1 Cressida sm

Ah, to be such a classic bombshell.

There is lots of newness in this photo, from the dress from Apple May Designs to the hat by JfL Real Hats, the decorations by Kaerri to the pose by * La Jolie Rose *. In fact, everything in this photo is new, except my body, mesh head and skin.

Maybe I can’t be like Marilyn, but I can at least surround myself with pretty things I’m sure she would love.

Pretty stuff I’m showing off:
*Dress: Apple May Designs Cressida (Maitreya) – Red by Apple May (available on Marketplace for Buy Now June 2016 – Bubblegum Pink only 50L)
*Hat: JfL Real Hats French Beret_medium grey by Johnfrancis Laville
*Shoes: phedora. Cora Maitreya heels by Celina Galli
Hair: Lamb. Bobbi by Lamb Bellic (available at Collabor88 June 2016)

Available at Vintage Fair June 10-26, 2016
*Marilyn poster: part of Kaerri Malibu Triptych by Cain Maven
*Carnations: Kaerri Malibu Carnations by Cain Maven
*Side table: Kaerri Malibu End Table by Cain Maven
*Rug: Kaerri Malibu Rug by Cain Maven
*Drinks table: Kaerri Kauri Drink Table by Cain Maven
*Pose: * La Jolie Rose * – Pin up pose4 by Aaisling

Vintage Fair 2016 Poster

Bed: Soy. Metal Platform Bed by Soyoy (available at Collabor88 June 2016)
Headboard: Soy. Vintage Metal Headboard – TypeA by Soyoy (available at Collabor88 June 2016)
Magazines: Soy. Cluttered magazines – extra with bed by Soyoy (available at Collabor88 June 2016)
Build: Scarlet Creative Clessy Manor by Scarlett Bartlett (available at Collabor88 June 2016)